Doesn’t matter that you didn’t mean it though Zach, you still said it and it hurt. I know you didn’t mean it okay? Yet that doesn’t change how I feel right now. Everyone else is supposed to make me feel like shit, I’m used to it so I know what to expect. You however are supposed to make me feel better about being alive. When you love someone Zach, you don’t hurt them. That’s our problem, we love each other but we hurt each other all of the time.
I’m not so sure about that. I think that sometimes we hurt the ones we love because we know that they love us and it feels safe. If what you’re saying is true, you wouldn’t say all the mean shit you say to me. Maybe we love each other, and we hurt each other, because it’s a safe zone? It’s home.
I do know that Zach, trust me I do know. That doesn’t change the fact that you said what you said. I know I’ve said some shitty things to you before, but not once have I ever said anything about your baggage. I’ve stayed by your side even when everyone else was telling me how much of a horrible person you were. When everyone else left you, I was the one that was there. A lot of the shit you say I don’t let it affect me, but that hurt more than you can ever imagine.
You know it isn’t true though. I can always handle you, every minute, for the rest of my life I could handle you.
Whether you are holding a knife to my throat or sleeping my in arms. I love you no matter what. I love you 100% percent. You are the only fucking person who matters. You are it for me. You’re my everything.
Baggage,or no baggage.
[pushes him away from her] Just go Zach. You know I can take a lot of shit from you, even you hitting me which has happened before. The one thing that I can’t take is how you can cut me down so fast just by saying a few words. You meant it because you don’t say things you don’t mean.
I say plenty of shit I don’t mean Bri. I didn’t mean it. I love you. I love you more than I love my own mother, more than myself. I’d give up everything for you, tell me you don’t know that deep down.
J-Just go. S-Sorry I’m too much for you, I’m too much for everyone. Don’t worry I won’t come around anymore.
[Immediately loosens his grip and moves her hair out of her face. His stomach instantly dropped] Bri…I…[He didn’t know what to say. The Bri he knew rarely cried about anything. There wasn’t much that could bring a tear to her eyes so he knew he crossed a line.] I didn’t mean that.
You know that isn’t true.
[breathes out roughly as she’s slammed against the wall] Do I? Well you would know you asshole since you do the same thing. Putting your hands on me isn’t going to make anything between us better. Back up before you have a fucking problem on your hands.
What Us? Where the fuck is there an US? Who could put up with all your fucking baggage. I’ve been there since the beginning and I can’t even stomach is 70 percent of the time.
[Shoves her face some] What the fuck you gonna do, huh? Do something. [Shoves her face again] Swing, bitch.